Saturday, December 3, 2011
I don't love you any more!!!
Friday, October 28, 2011
I will act , I will escape , I will ignore...
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
But I am not perfect...
I thought I would ask someone the solution of my problem… Explain them what I am going through and they will tell me what to do … It wasn’t that easy. Everyone was able to relate to me and my issues but no one had a tailor-made solution for me, not even Google… (Yes, I Googled it :P)
I don’t know whether everyone goes through the same feelings that I go through… I think they do… But all of them are so busy pretending and boasting about their perfect lives… they have perfect relationships, perfect careers, so much money etc…
But I am not perfect… I have messed up badly in my life more than 60% of time. I have not obeyed my parents … I was in an unhealthy relationship… I also thought about cheating…I was a selfish friend… and on few occasions a very bad sister… and on many occasions a insensitive daughter…
Yes, I am full of sins or at least thought seriously about many … And in this whole wide world I am having hard time finding someone who can tell me that even he made a mistake .. That even she messed it up … that even he was confused … and above all that she went through exactly same feelings that I am going through… If only we could share more and pretend less.. .We can find out solutions and ideas to solve our problems like someone else did…
Tell me that you are as normal as I am!!!Please tell me… I am getting all lonely out here in the imperfect corner…
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Delicious Ambiguity !!!
Friday, September 30, 2011
I can change...
Monday, September 19, 2011
Don’t worry, you will get through!!
Patience is the key to happiness. But it is easier said than done. I read somewhere that you may not be able to fight your own fears but you can fight someone else’s fears. It means that you may not be able to solve your own problems , encourage your own self ,reduce your anxiety and stress but you can do that for a friend, a colleague etc.
How often we find our friends repeatedly encouraging us before an exam or an interview – “Don’t worry, you will get through!” and then this statement is repeated again and again till you finally get through. During all the testing times you are engrossed in a fight between the negative voice and the positive voice. No matter how hard you try to suppress negativity ,human mind is such that it will focus more on – “why you will fail ? “ rather than –“why you will be selected?” and the frenzy begins.
I thank all the friends who have fought my fears and disappointments for me. Who have kept all my worries at bay by repeatedly saying – Sahiba !! Tension mat le … Ho jayega!!!
:) :) :)
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Those four lines...
I read it again …
Those four lines
That ended us…
Ended me…
Was it that easy to finish?
Was it such a practical thing ?
Four lines…Your four lines
And my world fell apart…
I have erased everything,
But those four lines
I kept them safe.
A remembrance to heartache
A toast to your cowardice
Poetry of my helplessness…
I read it again…
How beautifully
You accepted your lies,
Like a mirage
In front of my eyes,
Thought I could look through you
Thought you could feel my love…
But four lines, just with four lines
You ended and I endured…
Do you ever think back?
Of life without me?
Or you thought about it too often?
Did you think about her
When I thought about you?
Did you miss her
Every time I missed you ?
Somewhere someday
And I shall ask you
Just one time
One question, one rhyme
Did you love her?
When I thought you loved me….
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Goodbye Forever...
After a while you begin to realize that there's a difference
Between holding a hand and falling in love.
You begin to learn that kisses don't always mean something,
And promises can be broken as easily as they are made,
And sometimes,
Sometimes....
Goodbyes really are forever....
PS : From my quotes collection ,not written by me...
Sunday, July 17, 2011
In search of randomness...
We live two lives
One of our own
And one of others...
They made the rules
And you follow it
Never questioned
Never resisted
Kept smiling
Loving and Understanding
Being and Becoming
What others want you to be…
And time blurs the line
Between us and myself…
Their becomes mine
Mine becomes void…
But sometimes; some things
Bring out that song
Long forgotten…
That colour which faded…
Those people
Separated…
And in these times
You think …. Why?
Why? What? When?
Where is the line
That line between
You and yours,
And how will you ever
Draw it again…
How will you separate?
Responsibilities and happiness…
Commitment and attraction…
Can you? Can you leave that hand?
And walk away,
In search of yourself
Are you confident enough?
Can you? Can you leave?
That so called happiness…
Leave that worldly perfection,
In search of randomness…
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Whiling away time...
Monday, June 20, 2011
My Dearest Allie
My Dearest Allie.
I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you.
Noah I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.
So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday.
PS: I found this in my quotes collection. It is probably from some movie. I loved every word in this and thus I am publishing it here. I have been trying to write a poem for so long but I am not able to finish any. So I have now almost five unfinished poems...Till I complete them I may post some of my compiled collection.Not written by me but still a part of me.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
First rain..
I had clutter of thoughts
Some of love
Some of pain
Some of loss
Some of gain
Randomness revisited
Restlessness heightened
And then it poured
How we used to stand for hours near the glass window
Making hearts with fingertips
And that bike which got punctured
Long walks and short trips…
you hated puddles
and I loved splashing
you wanted instrumental
I wanted dirty dancing…
That night it poured heavily
I was drenched from head to toe
I missed your presence in the rain
I guess you would never know…
I looked at you, you smiled
And then you looked away
You were just behind the window there
But you seemed far away…
It’s raining again
And sometimes
Only sometimes
I miss u in the rain
The way I did that day
The way I did today…
And sometimes
Only sometimes
I would like to know
What were you thinking?
When you were looking away…
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Nothing Special !!
Passing through the same road
Doing the same chores
Thought less
Numbness
Clueless
Life was passing by me
It was just another day
The same more or less
In the bathroom
Suddenly I saw a flicker of sunlight
Dancing on my naked waist
I smiled
Nothing special...
I cooked breakfast
Kitchen window gave way
To a subtle rush of air
And my long locks got entangled
I blushed
Nothing special
An early morning message from him
Warm fuzzy feeling inside
Nothing special...
As I was putting kohl
My eyes looked bigger
They sparkled
I thought
Nothing Special...
Gathered my stuff
Arranged my bed
And there lies my diary
I caressed it like my child
Wished it goodbye
It was hard to leave a part of you behind
But Nothing special…
I was getting late
But the lift was waiting right there
Lucky me, I thought
Time saved
Nothing special…
Reached office
Bumped into him
Then again saw him near the water cooler
He looked at me and kept looking
I didn’t know where to look
Funny…Embarrassing
Nothing special…
My boss praised me
He thought I was a very intelligent girl
I acted modest
Inside I was as happy as a child
Nothing special…
Returned
Roommates were discussing dinner
The most debatable topic
So menial yet so important
Place decided
Then No one was hungry
Stupid we were
Never sure
Nothing special…
The hot whether
Room was like hell
We slept on rooftop
Slept, chatted, laughed till wee hours
Nothing special…
Another morning
Puffy eyes
Aching back
It’s hot, humid
Another day
I will pass through the same road
Do the same chores
Thought less
Numbness
Clueless
Life will pass by me
It will be just another day
The same more or less
Nothing special...
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
they Inked the rules on her!!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Soul keeps falling out!!
There are few truths,
You know abt yourself..
You hide
Never accept , keep mum,
never say it out loud...
Appear to be one in the majority
But hehehe...
Your soul keeps falling out.......
You straighten it
You scold ; you shout...
It mocks you
Then the Name calling
Nd it walks out…
I told you kiddo
Told you to watch out...
'dat Your restless soul;
That Bloody soul keeps falling out...