Denial of love...

Denial of love

is a self defeating purpose.

What more do you expect

From an ignorant girl.

When you loved her she was

Beautiful and sweet

Now she is pallid & dumb

Just a piece of meat

they say love persevers

its men who change

but society asks

whats a wife without his name

Freedom is my only virtue

And love -my greatest vice.

Where should I go darling,

Its like sophie’s choice.

Written on 20th Oct 2009

A rainy day!!!

A rainy day is like finding your soul mate. With every embrace it will make you feel beautiful, with every touch it will create pangs in your nerves, it will be there when you want to hide your tears from the world, it will make you hungry, it will induce sleep like never before, will make harder to concentrate on other things, above all it will cleanse you of all the pains and will let you dream … and when it is gone it leaves sweet and naughty memories behind ….

from one weekend to another..

When I was a kid I used to be excited about children's day coz our school used to have some function and sweet distribution . I used to look forward to teacher's day coz I used to lead a team of dancers ready to perform. I so loved performing on stage and missing periods to practice for dance . I used to feel that I belong to some special cadre that I had so much responsibilities on my head - studying and dancing.. :P...

The day that I was most enthusiastic about was my birthday. What will I wear , what sweets will I distribute , where will I give the treat , who all will be invited .. I used to feel so speacial wearing civil dress while everyone used to be in uniform.

 Now that I have started working the thing that I look forward to most is - WEEKEND!!

I think of weekend everyday! Its like I am living life from one weekend to another... No teacher's day , No childrens day ... only saturday and sunday!!

My love .. My defeat..

As subtle cold wind flows through my hair
and few raindrops wet my blue feet
I sit on these withered footsteps
and accept - my love and my defeat...

Thinking about past...

Sometimes we spend a lot of energy thinking about past... Anything from past job to past relationship, from school friends to college life , from ex- boss to ex-girlfriends.. sometimes even about last internet connection you had... last paying guest apartment .... and what fun you had while riding your scooter... that corner juice shop... that paanwala.. your school auditorium.. that college trip...that guy who kept smiling at you.. the one who asked for your number one day....the one who asked your age... the girl who gave u a pen...the friday lunch in informal dress code..

There are so many things we have experienced ... loved , hated , cherished.. we hated them then.. but we love them now.. i get so jealous when I see students on their vehicles , just whiling away time..standing for hours at the vehicle stand and chit-chatting.. like we used to do..

Then there are hurtful things we think about .. the interview we screwed up , the guy we liked, the girl who broke your heart , the boss who never understood your worth ... that friend who ditched ... that exam you didn't clear ...

Let go .. let go of all the beautiful memories.. cherish them or forgive nd forget them...

"Don't look so long at the closed door that you miss other doors opening beside you!!

Life goes on .. We are blessed to experience every part of life .. so live in the present moment .. enjoy it before its gone .. nd later u wud remember how wonderful these days were...

"Let bygones be bygones... there is a reason people in your past didn't make it to your future.."

make ur own mistakes..

I read somewhere that

" life is all about knowing which bridge to burn and which to cross"

And I guess its so true for all of us. Its all about making choices .Wether to eat eggs or cereals in breakfast ,to wear black or white to office ,to go on a second date with him or not , to be mean to them or be tolerant, phew!!

To be or not to be!!

Sometimes we think life would have been much easier if someone else could decide for us but no thats not what we exaclty want , we want someone else to decide something right for us...
And because "right decision" is a relative term , dont you think its better that we decide for ourselves , no matter how stupid we are , how lost we are ... but its always better to make your own mistakes...