Showing posts with label mind. Show all posts
Showing posts with label mind. Show all posts

Thursday, March 1, 2018

Come out of your head madam

He told me to breathe out from mouth. I felt suffocated. I tried to come to the surface but he forced me down .
With his hand gestures he told me to breath in and breathe out. But I panicked and pushed him away to come to the surface.

There I was amidst Arabian sea with my scuba diving guide. I couldn't breathe. Only me and seagulls . I could see governor s house far away near the horizon. Also spotted central jail. But no humans.

If I die today will it really matter. And just as the monster of existential crisis was about to take over he shouted -"" look madam , I have seen a lot of people like you. I train them everyday. Do as I say. Even of u panic just forget it and concentrate on what I say. Don't think much. Come out of your head. It's a scary place filled with panic and death. Just do as I say. Don't think.""

With this he took me down . 40feets down. And I started to breathe with my mouth only.

Suddenly I became a scuba diver. I started to appreciate the aquatic Flora and fauna.
I even tried to catch school of fishes. Touched red coloured coral.

Later when I came back to the safe place. The waiting feeder boat. Only one thought remained.

"Come out of your head ......scary... Death....don't think..."

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

With an end in my mind ...








Dearest

I may have started with an end in my mind... yes an end.. to safeguard myself against a potential heartbreak .. a downfall..

But the truth is so clear .. so obvious .. that preparing for an end doesn't lessen the pain it causes..

Yes I was prepared for the end but not for the pain of living without a hope...

End is natural but hopelessness is like dying on a lonely island knowing no one will know you died not that they will save you...