Showing posts with label learning to love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label learning to love. Show all posts

Thursday, March 1, 2018

Come out of your head madam

He told me to breathe out from mouth. I felt suffocated. I tried to come to the surface but he forced me down .
With his hand gestures he told me to breath in and breathe out. But I panicked and pushed him away to come to the surface.

There I was amidst Arabian sea with my scuba diving guide. I couldn't breathe. Only me and seagulls . I could see governor s house far away near the horizon. Also spotted central jail. But no humans.

If I die today will it really matter. And just as the monster of existential crisis was about to take over he shouted -"" look madam , I have seen a lot of people like you. I train them everyday. Do as I say. Even of u panic just forget it and concentrate on what I say. Don't think much. Come out of your head. It's a scary place filled with panic and death. Just do as I say. Don't think.""

With this he took me down . 40feets down. And I started to breathe with my mouth only.

Suddenly I became a scuba diver. I started to appreciate the aquatic Flora and fauna.
I even tried to catch school of fishes. Touched red coloured coral.

Later when I came back to the safe place. The waiting feeder boat. Only one thought remained.

"Come out of your head ......scary... Death....don't think..."

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

I am learning to love again ...



A friend of mine triggered this thought . He asked " Can you start all over again..like a clean slate ? "

I replied - "yes!!" I am a clean slate , I am at my best ready to accept any new experience with open arms."

But I guess it wasn't true. Can we really be open to love , to love again. I think with every failed relationship you die a little which adds up to a long list of "THINGS NOT TO DO!!"


What about giving yourself another chance. New hopes .. new wings... new love...
Can we really fall in love again ? Can we drop the baggage of past and embark on a new journey with the same vigour and enthusiasm?
Do you have the courage to be vulnerable again ?
Can you still wait for him on dinner table ?
Wear his favourite colour and wait for compliments ...
Will you make him a collage on his birthday and a handmade card on your anniversary ? 
Do you still have the courage to walk  on the same road where you once were so lonely ?

Above all do you still have the strength to smile everytime he smiles at you....