Showing posts with label expectation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label expectation. Show all posts

Saturday, March 23, 2013

A huge Leap of faith ...




What to we actually fear losing in a relationship ? After we break up , what is that undying pain we have in our hearts? What do we mean by losing love and why does it hurt so much ?

When we love someone we begin to trust them step by step , inch by inch . Through their gestures and care we realize that they can be trusted with our heart , our lives. Our inner goddess who was up till now hiding under the bed pops up and claims the throne. She is happy and satisfied . Starts to rule like a queen because she feels she is safe . And you take that leap of faith. You tell him your biggest lies , greatest secrets with a promise of understanding and care . 




You put down the walls be vulnerable and introduce him to your shy and meek inner goddess. And you inner goddess is so happy to finally find someone with whom she can love happily ever after in her empty palatial house . 

And then your heart breaks. One fine morning your prince charming doesn't return to your inner Goddess . She waits and waits.. She forgets to dress up like she usually does , doesn't eat a thing and stares at you blankly with her smudged mascara eyes.



why did you introduce him  to her ? Why did you vouch for him ? 

Why did you let me take that leap of faith if you were not sure ? 

why ?

And you answer : " BUT I WAS  so SURE !!"


Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Being independent is a sin...




I was not thinking…

I just wanted to prove myself to you …But every time I do that your criteria changes…

You resemble my parents…

While I achieve the greatest heights in my career ,they regret my education just because I don’t listen to them…

And all the times they said that they have sacrificed everything to make me study seems so meaningless now…

That’s what we all are right!! We create buildings just to accuse them of their heights..

We want make our children independent but we use every possible trick to cripple them … to make them realize our importance...

And if this doesn't happen we accuse them of being too independent...

When did we draw a line between being independent and being too independent…?

Life would be so easy if we could choose whether to let go or to hold on … nothing in between will give peace…

Friday, June 1, 2012

A messy Affair !!!


Nothing but a messy affair...
she hold him tight 
goes out of sight  
Will go to someone else tonight...
she keeps him too and loves him too
she tells him that " I am made for you" 
She has her stories ... seductive ones
Where she made out with every one turn by turn...
She eats apple pie in hiding
And has a degree in lying...
But I still hold her close to my heart
Her brazen thoughts, so original , so wild...
She enjoys her philandering trips
With an innocence of a child...
She chats dirty , she wears cheap
She smells like cigarette in fresh air
She tells me as she settles her skirt
"Relax Sweety! It is nothing but a messy affair !!!"


Saturday, January 14, 2012

Have I asked for too much ?






Just comfort me
When I lie down on bed after a long day's work...
Have I asked for too much ?

Just fetch me a glass of water
when I can't stop coughing...

hold my hand when I remember my dead dog , lost job or a broken dream

Cuddle me in the cold winter nights
you know I get so shivery....

Buy me those pink roses that you never bought

Surprise me with your cooking effort
On a lazy Sunday morning

Or may be just a small message "I love you"
When I am busy with kids and you are with your friends

Please don't sleep when I recite my poems to you
At least appreciate as they are all for you

And sometimes when you think of me as beautiful
I will be glad to hear it...

Have I asked for too much?