Showing posts with label hurt. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hurt. Show all posts

Saturday, March 23, 2013

A huge Leap of faith ...




What to we actually fear losing in a relationship ? After we break up , what is that undying pain we have in our hearts? What do we mean by losing love and why does it hurt so much ?

When we love someone we begin to trust them step by step , inch by inch . Through their gestures and care we realize that they can be trusted with our heart , our lives. Our inner goddess who was up till now hiding under the bed pops up and claims the throne. She is happy and satisfied . Starts to rule like a queen because she feels she is safe . And you take that leap of faith. You tell him your biggest lies , greatest secrets with a promise of understanding and care . 




You put down the walls be vulnerable and introduce him to your shy and meek inner goddess. And you inner goddess is so happy to finally find someone with whom she can love happily ever after in her empty palatial house . 

And then your heart breaks. One fine morning your prince charming doesn't return to your inner Goddess . She waits and waits.. She forgets to dress up like she usually does , doesn't eat a thing and stares at you blankly with her smudged mascara eyes.



why did you introduce him  to her ? Why did you vouch for him ? 

Why did you let me take that leap of faith if you were not sure ? 

why ?

And you answer : " BUT I WAS  so SURE !!"


Thursday, February 3, 2011

Or You are writing in vain?




There is something about this moment

That has made ur picture hazy

Something set deep in my heart

Something that makes it heavy...


I asked what beyond numbness

What beyond pain

Wat beyond white satin

What beyond stains...


He laughed – “write abt interesting things

Even if your day was mundane

Write about happiness

Or You are writing in vain?"



No I cant , I cant write about a happy job

An abundant life

No I cant write about a new flat

A trophy wife...


"Oh !! u poor , u poor writer

entangled in ur masochist emotions

u can just write about broken hearts

silent tears and love potion"


No wait don’t judge me so soon

I write for what I can’t express

Loneliness became my poetic affair

And silence accepted to be my mistress

Been trapped and cheated and starved to life

Reality was too hard to suppress

I have lost and failed and fallen and choked

The list my dear is endless..!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

I carry no more that sense of touch..



I carry no more
That Sense of touch
that thing called love
we had so much...

Between separation and possession
it seems,
I have got u but
I have lost myself...




And when I sleep at night without you;
Nothing more comes to my mind,
A state of non feeling
That surrounds me;
And neutrality that creeps in.

It’s been years since
I have been standing here,
But I have stopped waiting it seems.
No despair
Just boredom and no strength
to look for you
even a glance or stare.

I shut the drapes
the sunlight reminds me of the darkness
that exists.
And sometimes I stop breathing
to maintain
the loud silence that persists.


When the cold wind touches me
Wherever your fingerprints lie,
It neither hurts me nor loves me
like it used to
While I lie there naked and shy...

The world is just so busy; so engrossed,
to fill the gaps and emptiness,
to complete the incomplete stories;
to cover the carefully built distances.

And here I lay wide awake
thinking about no gaps to fill,
no games to play.
Just shouting in oblivion
with nothing
absolutely nothing to say....


Written almost an year back..