But I am not perfect...

I thought I would ask someone the solution of my problem… Explain them what I am going through and they will tell me what to do … It wasn’t that easy. Everyone was able to relate to me and my issues but no one had a tailor-made solution for me, not even Google… (Yes, I Googled it :P)

I don’t know whether everyone goes through the same feelings that I go through… I think they do… But all of them are so busy pretending and boasting about their perfect lives… they have perfect relationships, perfect careers, so much money etc…

But I am not perfect… I have messed up badly in my life more than 60% of time. I have not obeyed my parents … I was in an unhealthy relationship… I also thought about cheating…I was a selfish friend… and on few occasions a very bad sister… and on many occasions a insensitive daughter…

Yes, I am full of sins or at least thought seriously about many … And in this whole wide world I am having hard time finding someone who can tell me that even he made a mistake .. That even she messed it up … that even he was confused … and above all that she went through exactly same feelings that I am going through… If only we could share more and pretend less.. .We can find out solutions and ideas to solve our problems like someone else did…

Tell me that you are as normal as I am!!!Please tell me… I am getting all lonely out here in the imperfect corner…

Delicious Ambiguity !!!

Sometimes life seems to be like a masala movie...

but all we do is crib about it..

can't we just sit back and enjoy...

Or at least wait for the interval if not for the end...

Cheers to an eventful life!!!

I can change...

I have been listening to their scripts for so long

I am a better person I know

So hold on...

I can change the very essence of my being

I can be whatever I want to be..

I have tried and failed

And failed and tried...

But I still believe that I can change

I can improve...

Even if they think that

It is not meant to be...

Don’t worry, you will get through!!

Patience is the key to happiness. But it is easier said than done. I read somewhere that you may not be able to fight your own fears but you can fight someone else’s fears. It means that you may not be able to solve your own problems , encourage your own self ,reduce your anxiety and stress but you can do that for a friend, a colleague etc.

How often we find our friends repeatedly encouraging us before an exam or an interview – “Don’t worry, you will get through!” and then this statement is repeated again and again till you finally get through. During all the testing times you are engrossed in a fight between the negative voice and the positive voice. No matter how hard you try to suppress negativity ,human mind is such that it will focus more on – “why you will fail ? “ rather than –“why you will be selected?” and the frenzy begins.

I thank all the friends who have fought my fears and disappointments for me. Who have kept all my worries at bay by repeatedly saying – Sahiba !! Tension mat le … Ho jayega!!!

:) :) :)

Those four lines...

I read it again …

Those four lines

That ended us…

Ended me…

Was it that easy to finish?

Was it such a practical thing ?

Four lines…Your four lines

And my world fell apart…

I have erased everything,

But those four lines

I kept them safe.

A remembrance to heartache

A toast to your cowardice

Poetry of my helplessness…

I read it again…

How beautifully

You accepted your lies,

Like a mirage

In front of my eyes,

Thought I could look through you

Thought you could feel my love…

But four lines, just with four lines

You ended and I endured…

Do you ever think back?

Of life without me?

Or you thought about it too often?

Did you think about her

When I thought about you?

Did you miss her

Every time I missed you ?

Somewhere someday

And I shall ask you

Just one time

One question, one rhyme

Did you love her?

When I thought you loved me….

Goodbye Forever...

After a while you begin to realize that there's a difference

Between holding a hand and falling in love.

You begin to learn that kisses don't always mean something,

And promises can be broken as easily as they are made,

And sometimes,

Sometimes....

Goodbyes really are forever....

PS : From my quotes collection ,not written by me...

In search of randomness...

We live two lives

One of our own

And one of others...

They made the rules

And you follow it

Never questioned

Never resisted

Kept smiling

Loving and Understanding

Being and Becoming

What others want you to be…

And time blurs the line

Between us and myself…

Their becomes mine

Mine becomes void…

But sometimes; some things

Bring out that song

Long forgotten…

That colour which faded…

Those people

Separated…

And in these times

You think …. Why?

Why? What? When?

Where is the line

That line between

You and yours,

And how will you ever

Draw it again…

How will you separate?

Responsibilities and happiness…

Commitment and attraction…

Can you? Can you leave that hand?

And walk away,

In search of yourself

Are you confident enough?

Can you? Can you leave?

That so called happiness…

Leave that worldly perfection,

In search of randomness…