Dearest
I may have started with an end in my mind... yes an end.. to safeguard myself against a potential heartbreak .. a downfall..
But the truth is so clear .. so obvious .. that preparing for an end doesn't lessen the pain it causes..
Yes I was prepared for the end but not for the pain of living without a hope...
End is natural but hopelessness is like dying on a lonely island knowing no one will know you died not that they will save you...