Get a life !!!

I am not thinking about the past

Nor am I thinking of what will become of me...

I am thinking about the coffee that I am drinking

The brownie that I am eating

But not about the life that I am living..

Because I am not living it

It is happening to me..

So why waste time..

Why think about what it would have been

Why think about what is and what is it ?

I have switched of the thinking button

I am not ignorant ,

I am just giving space to my "LIFE"

I am letting it be..

I am not trying to control it...

I think I have stopped thinking about it at all times

I don't even know whether this poem rhymes...

My Dearest "Life" - "Please get a life!!!"

I seriously have other things to do

Than to bother about you ...

If only...

There are times when I think of holding your hand and never let you go…

There are times when I think of mingling your soul with mine…

If only I could lie next to you and cuddle you so tight…

I would be a peaceful woman with sleepless nights…

Have I asked for too much ?

Just comfort me

When I lie down on bed after a long day's work...

Have I asked for too much ?

Just fetch me a glass of water

when I can't stop coughing...

hold my hand when I remember my dead dog , lost job or a broken dream

Cuddle me in the cold winter nights

you know I get so shivery....

Buy me those pink roses that you never bought

Surprise me with your cooking effort

On a lazy Sunday morning

Or may be just a small message "I love you"

When I am busy with kids and you are with your friends

Please don't sleep when I recite my poems to you

At least appreciate as they are all for you

And sometimes when you think of me as beautiful

I will be glad to hear it...

Have I asked for too much?

I don't love you any more!!!

I don't love you any more ...

I cannot hold this love close to my heart

and sing lullaby for long ...

I cannot buy gifts on your birthdays

and send mails on anniversaries...

I can no longer smile to receive you

On the railway station...

For once , I am happy

That nothing will now be expected out of me...

I set you free ...

free from a person

incapable of loving you ,

the way you want to be...

love is like falling from a tall building

If you got to fall

let it be from the highest floor

And that is not me...

I will act , I will escape , I will ignore...

I will carefully pick up all the broken pieces

of our love...

and you will always be in an illusion of a perfect relationship...

It is alright to close your eyes and walk a little longer

I will show you the path...I will be there...

I will pretend till eternity that "It" is working ...

And in flickering moments of truth , I will be laughed off as a fool...

I will never in my life again mention the emptiness of our love

I will never break the code...

I will act , I will escape,I will ignore ...

Although all this comes naturally to you!!!

But I am not perfect...

I thought I would ask someone the solution of my problem… Explain them what I am going through and they will tell me what to do … It wasn’t that easy. Everyone was able to relate to me and my issues but no one had a tailor-made solution for me, not even Google… (Yes, I Googled it :P)

I don’t know whether everyone goes through the same feelings that I go through… I think they do… But all of them are so busy pretending and boasting about their perfect lives… they have perfect relationships, perfect careers, so much money etc…

But I am not perfect… I have messed up badly in my life more than 60% of time. I have not obeyed my parents … I was in an unhealthy relationship… I also thought about cheating…I was a selfish friend… and on few occasions a very bad sister… and on many occasions a insensitive daughter…

Yes, I am full of sins or at least thought seriously about many … And in this whole wide world I am having hard time finding someone who can tell me that even he made a mistake .. That even she messed it up … that even he was confused … and above all that she went through exactly same feelings that I am going through… If only we could share more and pretend less.. .We can find out solutions and ideas to solve our problems like someone else did…

Tell me that you are as normal as I am!!!Please tell me… I am getting all lonely out here in the imperfect corner…

Delicious Ambiguity !!!

Sometimes life seems to be like a masala movie...

but all we do is crib about it..

can't we just sit back and enjoy...

Or at least wait for the interval if not for the end...

Cheers to an eventful life!!!